i was moved with the note posted by encik nahar way back then in fb. thank you for including me as the one who is been mentioned in the note encik nahar. though it is quite implicit but i guess you had strike it quite well to my head. ever since i'd read the writing of yours, i was taken aback with the word "first" and tried my very best to comprehend well on things that might applied as just as same as those situation.
in our everyday life, everything is a first time. the first to learn how to walk, the first you learn how to spell and read. but those are petty things that sometimes people like us don't really count it on. i myself had take it easy earlier until few incident had come upon and like i said before strike me on the head and this time, heart.
i just finished my finals the other day and i am pretty disappointed with myself to always rely on past victory and never will want to be out of my comfort zone. dwellers quoted that universities life are a real life experience. i had my one year of foundation, and still find life in universities is no much differ from the life i've been lead before. yes it is, but not until i had my first year first sem degree. indeed, ever single tiny stuff here are a first time.
right after my three credit TAB1013_0208 Structured Programming, i find myself numb and realize that i am experiencing the first time real life experience that i've been waiting for for a year in utp. i am quite pissed off that the course is the first to be conduct after quite a some time, and so infuriate to have the paper majoring most on the topic that we only had been lectured by two or three weeks before final. and to get the question that so not included in our test 1 and test 2, which purely means, the paper is a hundred percent on your own capable and ability.
i am super stress and demotivated.
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this situation remind me so much of encik nahar's writing. everything is always a first time in life and actually chances are never well tempted with avail. unless you did it quite to par. and first time is so hard but in real life, you need to excel in your first time because time and chance wait for no man. that is life. same goes with our life, our life now here, in this borrowed world. this is our first time. we had never the chance to live before time or later. this is our one and only chance to prove that we are worth and to gain happiness hereafter.
i take the word first time pretty easy throughout my life and had never emphasize on any. but i am so sure i won't anymore after this. not only because the TAB1013_0208 only incident, but much more in my recent life. i was bless to have the brain to know ABC during my early years and to know how to read quite cepat from others also to write an essay when i was only seven. because some of us did not get the chance when they are in our age, so seem that they need to stay and repeat the same old thing. and i am so touched to know that the someone is my someone. and i can't do anything to help just to create a healthy environment.
i never thought things would be like this, it might not be an end up but pretty much it had started just yet like this. and i keep remind myself that though i had achieved my best level as a human, but not my children later on. they need assistant and early education to cope with life. often when we grew older we forgot all this important basic element for human to grow because we had reached that level. again, it will be a first time though we had past those stage. a first time for us to educate the little-us.
First Time ;
is only a two word consist of not more than ten letters,
but it had taught me and maybe you more than the number of letter indicated.
also with this,
first time had never failed me in becoming a better person. this is not the first time, or second or thrice, but my fifth. it might not yet challenge the three years i had but soon i know it will, i have faith in that. my nineteen in this fifth time; i am all bless to have this bond to live with.
Happy One Year and Seven Month Anniversary You.
We are less than half to two wonderful years.
Thank You for all the lifting up session you did.
and for never giving up in me.
also for being such an excellency in taking a good care of me.
appreciate you so much ;dd
random tajuk don't make assumption people, it kills, hehehehe. i don't plan to write much, but i guess i need. for the relevant reason that i will be loafing around studying in the irc without any permission near electrical appliances also for the fact i will be off home immediately after the exam the next day.
first and foremost;
i would like to say sorry and initiate my fully regret for always give this people an empty seat of me. i am truly deeply sorry for the inconvenience that i couldn't make it to be there and have fun with you guys. sorry that i need to balik cepat for some reasons and uncertainty avoidance. you guys know well why kan, so thank you for the understanding. i am so sorry i can't make it in any way, sorry.
it is not like i don't appreciate you guys or whatsoever, hell no. home need me more in this crucial time. please don't keep a distance during this cuti though we are parted miles away. i will call you guys just like i did cuti yang dulu dulu. make yourself free to come to wangsa maju, so i can entertain you with any proper masakan, hehehehe. and do enjoy your holidays as you guys akan balik awal for some events.
and most importantly, do remember my birthday, hahaha. and remember me when you guys keluar. and send cute pictures of you guys to me. and and and so so so so so on.
to beeha;
don't worry, you will get so many gambar of baju and stuff and blablabla, well i tend to hantar to you sebab nanti you can jadi excited and maybe awalkan tarikh borong you, ngehngehngeh. and keep me update if any sale sini sana, oh you know. hehehe.
to diyanah;
oh you are so excited about my new founding : the Adeera Theory, hahaha. thank you for the movies, so membantu when i boring nanti after penat jadi babysitter, hehehe. and take care and jaga those two cuddly minje minje and star-what? of yours, and fill some accessories on that barbie you girl !
to sharifah;
the most spastik human being for making so many weird retarded face. enjoy the new game, best woo. and do cari game lain yang baru. hehehe. and tangkap gambar banyak banyak your anak buah, for i can tengok bayi bayi comel. hehehe.
to hani;
sila juga beli banyak lagi cd game yang gempak gempak, hehehe. god i am so into games now, hehehe. and congratulations for the one month ahead to a year, told you it would last when you last, heh ? ada faham ? sorry sedikit tamil nadu, hahaha. promise you a card and soon it will be. Happy Annivesary in Advance, may it lasts till eternity okay.
Going to miss you all punya djeee, hehehe.
and sherry's loud voice, and diyanah punya gelak also hani, and beeha punya signifant identity when kene kacau. Going to miss you all. Love you all to my pankreas, tulang sumsum, air tulang sumsum and all lah. haish so infinity and tak tahu to cakap how how and how.
Hidup GoFish, hahaha ;dd
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not to lupa gadis litar dua orang yang cuba untuk mengoda laki saya atas alasan saya kata pojan hot and baik and cute, eleh you all, tajuk di atas adalah khas sama sekali untuk you all, hahaha. going to miss both of you so much. for the way you sakat me and so whatever. don't worry i won't stop hantar mesej that says Thank You for being nice. (i'm not that jahat okay)
nak plan apa apa khabaq mai na. kami sedia membantu anda, hehehe.
Love you both to bits (:
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also to semua yang dimention and tak dimention, directly indirectly;
Enjoy Your Holidays People, hope to hear from you.
Thank God for this guy who never ever jauh miles away for long from me.
though we are going to be home for holidays or starting a new sem.
always near me in utp and wangsa maju, God Bless, God Bless Us ;dd
So Long, Toodles ;dd
saya bertuah. that during my days went through the SPM I have an adik, who is far to be called mature by her age, but know how to dedicate and lift my strength for the days.
Sepet,
Thank You for your wits two years ago.
And now kau akan melaluinya,
Kakak akan do just the same as what you did.
Sepet,
Kakak tak pernah nak cakap pada kau how i felt the day you texted me the lyrics. it is undescribable though. i am so moved and terharu to have adik like you, who at your age that time would know the difficulties that will aku gone through, Thank You Sepet.
Kakak harap kau tak nangis when you baca this, kita mungkin tak normal as adik beradik, we are more like friends, indeed Kakak rasa that make us more close than ever. tapi one thing aku regret is that kau selalu membandingkan diri kau yang hebat dengan Kakak kau yang tak seberapa ini.
You Worth More that apa yang kau rasa pet.
kau hebat to cope with life yang not only surrounds with books. bagi Kakak kau multi-talented, in semua yang kau buat. something yang kau tak nampak but i do. aku bangga tengok gambar graduasi kau despite the grand kurung kau pakai. in me aku bermonolog, adik aku dah besar. kau mampu untuk fikir lebih dari aku pada usia kau now.
Kakak tak nak cakap banyak here pet, just nak kau tahu, in whatever you do, aku akan sentiasa ada dekat dengan kau, walaupun secara faktanya aku jauh. aku yakin pada adik aku and segala kekuatan and the brilliant mind yang kau ada.
Kakak mungkin lebih tua dari kau mengikut angka usia, tapi aku selalu merasakan kau kakak pada aku. for kau selalu buat aku rasa ada orang jaga aku, and for jaga adik adik aku yang lain selama aku takde dekat pada rumah. Thank You pet.
kadangnya dalam hidup ada step yang aku ambil turn to be salah. it is for you to see, to comprehend and to make it as a lesson. biarlah aku terima baik buruk langkah aku but not you. Kakak nak kau ambil langkah kendian yang flawless.
shit things happen in life pet, and if one day kau tak dapat apa yang kau nak, trust me it is not a punishment, but a gift from Tuhan that kau perlu comprehend thoroughly. to dapat doesn't mean to be bless, to tak dapat, doesn't mean kau di-deceive. things can turn out and be implicit juga subtle. Tuhan always have His own reason for things yang jadi, and ingat, He will never bound His creation with things that they couldn't bear. always percaya in that.
it is miracle to get to know that we are growing old sama sama. aku selalu rasa kelakar when Ibu mention kita main kfc kfc and barbie dulu dulu. and speaking of that, aku selalu ingat akan zaman kita dengan mami. kau tahu, aku selalu bayangkan mami bangga ada kita as her cucu. kita semua sayang mami, and for dia pet, don't let her down. she's praying for your best from somewhere up there. aku still ingat the lukisan kau bagi mami dekat hospital dulu and kau cakap kat mami "mami, balik rumah cepat okay", gah kau buat aku terharu time tu walaupun kita masih budak darjah tiga and satu yang berhingus. you know just right where and how to touch orang yang kau sayang. now bila nak cerita things, aku rasa senang to cerita with you all semua, despite the other two who is i guess soon will be mature. aku rasa terharu when kita can cakap and borak things yang kita tak buat dulu.
serious, You're growing up so fast.
kau is one adik aku yang aku classify kan as tough cookie. aku yakin kau boleh, Ibu tahu kau boleh, Ayah simply know his itik is hebat, Reenbon always look high on you, Iteen selalu doakan kau, and Muhammad will happy if kau berjaya.
kami tahu kau can.
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now highlight hero is bukan pada aku,
but kau now.
Sepet,
Thank You
for all the best position kau tinggalkan dalam diri semua orang.
and as return, aku tahu Tuhan akan ada bersama kau nanti.
Good Luck and All The Best SPM Dik.
baca seribu dinar banyak banyak, Ayah always right about seribu dinar.
Two years ago,
when i am about to sit for the SPM,
i received this lyric from this cuddly adik of mine.
(i cherish this song so much as it means alot during my spm and ste ;dd)
aiseyman,
dah habis chapter tujuh MOB; organizational structure. akhirnya habis juga people oi. serious nak hustle speed tak boleh langsung Subhnallah. banyak sangat mak nenek dalam chapter tu. nak taknak kene belek satu huruf ke satu huruf, hish. terpaksa jadi terkedek kedek dok baca satu satu. akhirnya setelah cuba sedaya upaya mengagahkan diri, khatam juga, heee ;PP
lagi aiseyman,
dah dua hari ni saya kalah "Good Morning Chicken" ni. esh, serious tak boleh jadi ni people oi. saya dah dua hari kalah betting ayam ni, aiseyman. kami now main game. demi untuk ke irc seawal jam 8.30, kami dah set untuk bagi dia yang bangun dulu, wajarlah untuk mengejutkan yang seorang lagi dengan suara bangga, macho and cun mangatakan : "Good Morning Chicken" hahaha. idea faruq, laki ku yang separa retarded at times ;PP
lagi lagi aiseyman,
kami ada sindrom tidak boleh dekat dengan barang elektronik bernama laptop, hahaha. kerana people oi, nanti kami akan mula bermain wedding dash and fifa 09, hahaha. serious ni. bukan berusaha membantu satu sama lain menghafal tapi dok tolong main wedding dash. and kesimpulan apa yang kami belajar that day is : sayur, daging, kek didalam wedding dash, hahaha. ni gejala cd Dinner Dash Hani yang best ! hahaha. ataupun kalau main fifa 09, kami akan bersemangatnya cuba untuk menjaringkan gol !
kali ini kami memilih Arsenal and kian jatuh cinta pada mereka, aiseyman.
lagi lagi lagi aiseyman,
duduk lama di irc, kami makin kematu and jelek memandang buku. maka kad madagascar kecil pemberian Suhaili yang boleh anda mendapatkannya di dalam kotak kotak cereal MILO Nestle membantu kami untuk gelak terbahak bahak pabila saya menang berturut turut tanpa cabaran mencabar dari pihak faruq, hahaha.
permainan yang diintroducekan oleh faruq iaitu GoFish sangat menyeronokkan. heee ;PP
lagi lagi lagi lagi aiseyman,
dalam suasana sibuk manusia UTP menghadapi kancah study week, ada pula lah test Oil and Gas yang meruntun jiwa setiap pelajar Tahun Satu Semestar Satu. sumpah banyak slide dia people oi. and sungguh kronik untuk memahamkan the chemical terminology and seangkatan dengannya, bak kata Sherry : to'ik. (tak tahu la betul ke tak eja nya)
lagi lagi lagi lagi lagi aiseyman,
saya kat bilik now, tu yang boleh ber-online seketika. aiseyman sudah jam tujuh. janji mahu lamsamkan Oil and Gas, namun mungkin sat lagi la. aiseyman lagi, nak kene siap mandi dah ni, karang WGN 5500 yang dalam nya dijaga Raider Wilson and Bruno akan start dok hangat tunggu tepi jalan.
lagi lagi lagi lagi lagi lagi aiseyman people,
Happy Study semua ! Yesza ;DD
*sumpah kedengaran spastik bak kata ooi, aidil and lynn, eceh ;PP*
hahaha, so there goes the tajuk today and it is specially brought to you by faruq's lappy (sebab saya malas nak bawak mai saya punya) and also from the ultimate IRC our so called library ;PP
gahhh so many things jadi, happen, berlaku and i am so sorry that i didn't manage (at all) to cerita anything, so here is the part where i call as re-cerita, heee ;DD
twentyseven October ;;
like yeah la people semua, this date is my Darling Diyanah punya birthday okay ! Though she wasn't around on that day tapi I and Sherry (makhluk yang tinggal, heee) juga seluruh rakyat Malaysia is sangat berterima kasih for her generousity to give us a public holiday sempena birthday dia la katakan (walhal Deepavali, hehehe) apa apa pun, Thank You Diyanah, you memang royalty you know to have the authority to bagi us cuti and dalam diam you nak kalahkan Queen ! ;PP
for always be there in my good and bad times. terharu gila time you suapkan i jagung petang after lab SP yang i sedih tahap mokhsya tu, hahaha. and for your wits, and gedik-ness which make me feel near to you (sebab i gedik too, hahaha) juga on top of all, your screaming "Adeeeeraaaaaaaa, heyyyy youuuu, apa you ni buat suara pelik" hahaha. suka gila dengar you cakap macam tu whenever i annoys you with my suara and dek-kek (susah nak taip, but guess you know how i pronounce it, heee ;PP)
I hope you like the pressie, hehehe. it is meant for you you know, memang sesuai gilaaa ! i nak tapi i guess she won't be happy with me sebab takde benda untuk i gantung, so make her happy okay ! hehehe ;DD
so comel this cuddly oh-uh of mine, ngeh ;PP
